I still keep a pocketknife on my bed table, even though I never carry one anymore. When I was growing up back in the 1950s, I carried one every day along with my comb, a few quarters and a key to my parents' house. It was just part of my daily carryings. I now leave it on my bed table because carrying one today would only get me into trouble. I'd set off a metal detector at the airport or in a mall, or it would get me in trouble in some other way.
When I was a kid, I used my pocketknife a lot. It was handy when I was fishing, for cutting line and cutting bait. (I never used it for anything having to do directly with fish, because I never caught any fish - not once, ever.) It was also good for whittling, which I never did too much of either. It was also ideal for scraping that black dirt out from under my fingernails that always seemed to build up there when I was a kid.
I have another pocketknife in my dresser drawer. It was one that I gave to my dad as a Christmas present somewhere around 1961. I bought it off a display at Gantner's Hardware in Nutley, New Jersey. Gantners, run by John and Joe Gantner, my favorite place in the world, and a store that now lives on only in memory. The knife is a classic, just two little blades that fold out of a handle with faux bone sides that are really made out of plastic. My dad liked it and carried it, and that made me feel great in a way that bonds with a great dad can sometimes make a boy feel.
Apart from cutting fishing line and clearning my fingernails, the pocket knives my father and I carried were also good for playing mubbeldy peg. The game was simplicity itself. My dad and I would sit on the lowest wooden step of our back porch - a spot ideal for mumbeldy peg because of the nice patch of dirt that was right there under our feet.
The essential idea of mumbeldy peg was that one player would throw his knife into the ground so that it would stick, point-down. Then the other player would throw his knife, same goal. And the play would continue until one player failed to make his knife stick into the ground - then that player lost and you started all over again in a new game.
What made the game challenging and fun was the fact that it demanded each player to make a series of knife throws of gradually increasing difficulty. These imbued the game with an almost balletic grace. I cannot remember all the moves in order, but this is a sequence of plays that might be close to the one that my dad and I used:
THROW ONE - You hold the knife by its handle and throw it straight down into the ground.
THROW TWO - You hold the knife by its point and throw it so that it rotates a half-turn before sticking point-first into the ground.
THROW THREE - You again hold the knife by the handle and throw it so that it rotates one complete turn before landing point-first in the ground. This is a bit tougher than it sounds.
THROW FOUR - You make your hand flat, with your palm facing the ground. You then place your open pocketknife lying flat on the top of your hand, lying comfortably between your fingers with its point facing in the same direction your fingers are. Then you execute a soft upward flip of your hand so that the knife soars up into the air point-first, then executes a half turn as it falls down and sticks point-first into the ground. Think of this move as making your knife execute a swan dive - it is just that elegant and that full of energetic grace.
THROW FIVE - A lot like THROW FOUR, except you put your hand palm-up and lie your knife there before flipping it up into the air for its swan dive.
THROW SIX - You hold the knife by its tip and toss it up into the air. Then as it falls, you tap the end of its handle with your open fingers so that it reverses direction and spins forward. If executed correctly, this causes the knife to rotate about 1.5 turns forward as it falls forward. This causes the knife to - you guessed it - stick into the ground, point-down.
My knife - its point, the sharp edge of it blade - served as one point of interaction between me and the world. It was a tool I could use to learn about the hard, real stuff of the universe. It let me move molecules around and change the shape of things. And in mumbeldy peg, it taught me physics in a way that I could never put into numbers or learn from a book.
Transcendental learning? I don't know, you tell me. But right now, I am thinking of walking over to my bed table, picking up that knife and putting it into my pocket again. Maybe just this once. Maybe just for today.